Friday, April 30, 2010

More News

Like I said Patrick and I are offically a couple to bad that I haven't talked to him since then its been days bassically over a week, if you think about it. He's suppose to be back home and we haven't seen eachother, so I broke it off. It's better this way for the both of us plus this time I met someone else and he's amazing.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

So Today...

"In the words of a broken heart It´s just emotion that's taking me over, Caught up in sorrow, lost in the song, But if you don´t come back, Come home to me darling, You'll know there´s nobody Left in this world to hold me tight, There´s nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight,
I talked to him again. This time I feel more disappointed then I have ever felt."- Bee Gees

broken heart Pictures, Images and Photos

Right now I am so lost so confused so frustrated so disappointed so hurt that I can't do anything.
This is something that I don't think I can take anymore.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Hello, I love you.

Hello, I've just got to let you know 'Cause I wonder where you are And I wonder what you do Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you? Tell me how to win your heart For I haven't got a clue But let me start by saying, I love you ... - Lionel Rickie


I can't believe I'm doing this all over again. I'm letting this happen all over again. Maybe I should explain all that happened.
Patrick whom I explained in prior posts he is someone I care about dearly and want to be with more than anything. I know it sounds like I am in love with every guy I'm with and that is not true...well it is sometimes I love them differently. In Patrick's case everything gets in the way and he wants me to wait for him. He told me to wait , I was heart broken again so I wrote him an email:

Hold your head high heavy heart.So take a chance and make it big,Cause it's the last you'll ever get.If we don't take it, when will we make it?I make plans to break plans,And I've been planning something big.- The Academy Is...

Friday, April 16, 2010

Second Update

There really isn't much to say today besides that this is the closest thing I have to talking. Other then that I have really not much to do. Except sit here and write on this blog and wait until the bell rings because there is FAIR testing and because I already passed the stupid FCAT I don't need to do it. But I was just informed that I wasted $95 on Grad Nite and the only real friend that I had going with me doesn't want to go anymore though he already payed oh the irony.

Day of Silence

April 16th is the Day of Silence.
Today, I am silent.
Pleas understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participationg in the Day of Silence, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harrasment, prejudice, and discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward fighting these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today.

What are you going to do to end the silence.
Day of Silence Pictures, Images and Photos

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I have a Plan!!!

I'm going to be what he needs now.
and what he wants later

Here's My Conclusion

When you love someone, you don't want to hurt them, even if they deserve to be hurt. When you love someone, you want to hurt them, even when they don't deserve to be hurt.

Friday, April 9, 2010

:( (hurt heartbroken lost)

First time, in a long time.
I'm crying for someone who doesn't EVER want to be with me.
How stupid is that.
How stupid am I?
Don't answer that.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Further More

I'm frustrated with the way life is going right now. I can't explain how ready I am to get out of this hell hole of a school. Whats going on is that I have nothing to do besides bullshit my way through the last two months of school (8 more Mondays) and its like everything is as exciting as I thought it would be. But again thinking has gotten me into trouble.

I'm trying my hardest to get along with my step dad but I'm at the point where I'm done trying i.e today I missed the bus for school mind you that was my fault but the entire time he kept ranting and raving about how I should have gotten up on time. Though this was the first time ever in my high school career that I had ever missed the morning bus for the matter of fact any bus and he kept going on and on about me missing it. Bullshit I know. Okay so we pull up to school and he says your welcome without even giving me the chance to say thank you. So I'm done with him and his stupidity.

On another note I have been quoting The Princess Bride
so here's one of my favorites: "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something." - Man in Black